Today, I had the worst breakdown that I’ve ever had. The last one I had was a couple years ago, and today’s was this continual on/off thing for hours and hours on end, starting from about 3 pm and continuing on until I got drunk with some friends. Yay booze! But, in all seriousness, I don’t know what caused it to happen. All I know is that it did when I was driving to meet someone, and I just started the breakdown for absolutely no reason that I can ascertain. And it stopped, then started up about 20 minutes later. This thing continued on for hours and hours. The 2 things I’m sure of, though, are that I don’t want it to happen tomorrow, and if it does, I’m going to see a psychiatrist.
Update: The Wednesday after I wrote this, I ended up going to see someone. Which, in all honesty, is not something I do. I like to solve stuff without needing help, so, when I go for help, to me it feels like I’ve given up. Anyways, yesterday, I was talking to one of my really good friends for a couple hours and found out that she was being treated way back. I was also talking to the girl that I’m “seeing” and it came out that she’s being treated currently.
I’m kind of ambivalent about doing this, but I also don’t like to leave things open so it’s kind of..not necessary..but almost wanted. Anyways, the short of it is that that I was diagnosed with “adjustment disorder with mixed anxiety and depressed mood”, so I get therapy and a prescription!